i'm gonna find a better you.

so, i decided that all of my blog titles are going to be song names. 

anyways, i've decided to catch up on my boy drama, but this is the last time i will talk and worry and bitch about boys.

well, i mentioned in my georgia entry that i had spent the weekend with the boy i was kinda feeling.  after that weekend i definitely knew that i like him. at first it was just ehh. whatever. but then, i couldn't stop thinking about him, etc. it was intense. when we got back things were completely different though. and i felt really uneasy, and knew something was up. 

well, long story short, the male race never ceases to disappoint. i knew it wouldn't end up with us together. it was too close to the end of the year, and i understood that. but according to him, this entire things was all me. that's what upset me the most i guess, that he acted like he didn't initiate anything, when he, in fact, initiated the majority of things. it hurt i guess. but i realize now that i shouldn't have expected more. once again, i have fallen heels over head for someone, and on the way down, not only did i break my ankle, but i also ruined my favorite pair of shoes.

that feels good to get off my chest.

Also, today marks the two year anniversary of Luq's death. I think about him all the time.  He was the funniest person i've known.  he was so smart. he was such a good writer, and a passionate person. i miss him. we all miss him. RIP Luq, i can't believe it's been two years.

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