Astonishing.

I was reading through my journal today, and I found and entry that i wrote last year entitled "to my future self."  I figured I'd share it on here.  It's kind of interesting to see how much i've changed, either for good or bad.  here it is

March 12, 2008-

To my future self: I hope you never compromised. I hope you still dream. I pray you still giggle often and imagine. Please don't grow-up. I hope you've learned from life, but tell me you still handle things with that child-like exuberance.  I hope you haven't settled for mediocrity.  Please tell me you still have crazy, all-night chick flick marathons with your best friends. I hope you haven't done anything absolutely stupid or ignorant. I hope you learn to forgive and forget.  Do you appreciate mom yet? you should, she does everything for you.  Have you fallen madly, truly, deeply, ridiculously in love yet?  I cannot wait to find out the answers, but it's scary, too."

when I read this I am not really sure how to feel. there are so many things that i feel i have failed myself, but then again, i don't think i have lived enough to answer most of those questions.  i still have time to stop in my tracks and fix things before i make any further mistakes...

i still have to see where life takes me. right now, i think i am heading in a direction that would sincerely disappoint my former self. 

happy fourth.

b.