wide open spaces.

tonight we went to watch fireworks. there is something about fireworks that always gets me. i am not sure what it is, but i can sit there in complete silence, and slight awe, while watching them. whenever i see fireworks, though, i always wish i had a significant someone to sit next to, and lean on, and cuddle with while watching the beautiful array of colors and lights that explode across the sky.  i don't know what it is. maybe it's just because it's summer, but i want a relationship. i guess i am just sick of being the friend or the hook up. i am ready to be someone's someone. i sound so gay and cliche [totally didn't mean to rhyme], but i can't help it.  all my friends are always talking about the cute things their boyfriends do, and it doesn't make me jealous, but it makes me wistful. 

well, that's my rant for today. camp is dragging on, but getting a little bit better. i mean how good can babysitting 15+ kids a day for minimum wage get? 

my family is still crazy. my friends are still wonderful. but being home is stifling. i feel so restrained and held back. i just want to get away. 

lately, i've been rediscovering my love for the dixie chicks. so good. 

i'll leave you with this. i've been listening to it on repeat the past couple of days. goodnight.

Who doesn't know what I'm talking about 
Who's never left home, who's never struck out 
To find a dream and a life of their own 
A place in the clouds, a foundation of stone 

Many precede and many will follow 
A young girl's dream no longer hollow 
It takes the shape of a place out west 
But what it holds for her, she hasn't yet guessed 

She needs wide open spaces 
Room to make her big mistakes 
She needs new faces 
She knows the high stakes 

She traveled this road as a child 
Wide eyed and grinning, she never tired 
But now she won't be coming back with the rest 
If these are life's lessons, she'll take this test 

As her folks drive away, her dad yells, "Check the oil!" 
Mom stares out the window and says, "I'm leaving my girl" 
She said, "It didn't seem like that long ago" 
When she stood there and let her own folks know 

love,

b.